I’ve been going through my journal lately in preparation for publishing a book on autism, and came across a few entries that I thought might make some good blog posts. Enjoy.  : )

January 8, 2009

I’ve been struggling with Perfectionism, Individualism, Self-Depreciation and Pride. It’s like a dungeon area in an RPG, I think I’m strong until I enter the cave and the enemies almost kill me, because they’re too strong or they’re completely unexpected. I have to study my enemies, rearrange my character in order to make him much stronger and equip him with the right weapons to kill these things. Then I think I’m strong again, until I go deeper into the cave.

That’s what my heart is like right now. It’s a cave that delves deeper and deeper, getting darker and more frightening with the revelation of each new level. God is showing me all these things that need to be cleared out, and giving me the wisdom and arsenal I need to do it, not leaving me to fend for myself.

A journey like this is painful and intimidating, and normally only a side-quest. Why bother? Because I know I’ll be all the stronger for the Experience, and able to face the unavoidable threats on the Main Quest.