‘My Life A.S. Is’ Playlist

My Life A.S. Is: An Inside Look at Autism and Asperger's Syndrome. Autobiography by Benjamin T. CollierI’ve heard about books having their own playlists, like a list of songs for the reader to listen to as they read to further immerse themselves in the book, or songs that the author listened to for inspiration as they wrote. So for My Life A.S. Is I put this list together of songs I feel reflect my life story. Actually, the list is a combination of songs reflecting the book directly, and songs that just feel like themes for my life in general.

I could have put this list together sooner, but just didn’t get around to it. Looking on it now I think it was waiting for “Robot Boy” by Linkin Park, which was on a CD I just received for my birthday. (Yes, I ask for Linkin Park CDs now. Bon Jovi wasn’t aggressive enough.)

“Imaginary” and “How Soon Is Now?” are both quoted in my book. “Innocence And Other Things Lost” might also have been quoted, if I had found out about the song in time. That one has become my new favourite song of all time now, so far, as the lyrics and emotions make a fitting summary of how I feel about my life.

I have attempted in this list to reflect my playfulness, my sense of purpose, the dark and beaten down places I have found myself in, and my hope for future restoration. And yes, the songs are in this particular order for a reason. Most of my playlists are like that. I am at heart a story-teller. 🙂

“Pinball Wizard” – The Who

“Imaginary” – Evanescence

“Miles Away” – Madonna

“The Outsiders” – Need To Breathe

“Land Of Confusion” – Genesis

“How Soon Is Now?” – The Smiths

“Innocence And Other Things Lost” – Starfield

“Through Smoke” – Need To Breathe

“Oh, Bury Me Not (Introduction: A Cowboy’s Prayer)” – Johnny Cash

“Tourniquet” – Evanescence

“Robot Boy” – Linkin Park

“I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For” – U2

“I’m Still Yours” – Kutless

“Trust Me (This Is Love)” – Amanda Marshall

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Deep Question #5

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When is it not after midnight?

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Most Awkward Christmas Moment

I remember one year as my birthday and Christmas approached (my birthday is in December) two of the many items on my wishlist were a Bon Jovi compilation album and a book combining two of John Eldredge’s books.

That year I had lost my copy of Wild at Heart by Eldredge, a book about understanding the masculine soul as it’s been designed by God. I was going to put that book alone on my wishlist, but someone told me about a special collection that was coming out combining that book with another one called Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge, which is basically Wild at Heart for women. (They preferred the title ‘Captivating’ over ‘Women Gone Wild at Heart’.)

Now, I’m at the age where my ongoing status as a single could cause relatives to wonder if I may be… not as inclined to continue the bloodline. I figured this other book might come in handy as far as understanding women better so I can talk to them more easily, and as a kind of heads-up on what to expect when entering a relationship.

My birthday came and one of the gifts I received was a new edition of Wild at Heart. On its own. Not the combo pack I had asked for. But I wasn’t disappointed. I missed the lessons in Wild at Heart greatly, and looked forward to being able to study those lessons further.

Christmas came, with all of my relatives together in one room. I opened up the gift from one of my two sisters, and received the Bon Jovi compilation album I had asked for. I opened up the present from my other sister and there, in my hands, in bright, pretty colours for everyone to see was a book, and scrawled across it in elegant lettering were the words Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman’s Soul.

I could not have been happier to receive a Bon Jovi compilation album, which I immediately threw into the cranked up CD player, blaring “Dead or Alive” and “Blaze of Glory” so everyone could hear.

And that’s my most awkward Christmas moment.

PS: Captivating is a great book. I recommend it to everyone, even guys. : )

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Candace and Ferb

I think I understand now why the show Phineas and Ferb appeals to me so much. It was my sister Anna who brought this show to my attention, most likely because she saw my personality in the character of Ferb Fletcher – the quiet, reserved, thoughtful, helpful, intelligent little brother with a pension for staring vacantly into the distance. And of course the show’s sense of humour and the ongoing rivalry between Perry and Doofenshmirtz got me hooked. People might be surprised to find that my favourite character on the show is actually Candace Flynn. Why?

Candace and Jeremy from Phineas And Ferb

I relate to the characters on this show because Candace and Ferb in particular represent this duality that I’ve discovered in myself. Yes, in most social environments I am very reserved, shy, and tend only to speak when I feel I have something significant to say, and because of this people often consider me to be a profound and deep thinker. What people don’t realize is that on the inside I’m more like Candace.

Ducky MoMo from Phineas And FerbWatching Candace feels like watching my inner self, in a way. The over dramatic tendency to panic, the apparent A.D.H.D., the obsessing over completing a certain task, the infatuation with the opposite sex, the inexplicable appreciation for Ducky Momo… Switch the genders around and Candace feels almost like a mirror to myself. Whereas Ferb is more a reflection of how I actually interact with the world. They’re like two halves of a whole.

Candace from Phineas And Ferb

Ferb Fletcher from Phineas And FerbAt my heart I’m this nervous, obsessive, insecure, hyperactive, over dramatic, easily distracted, hyper romantic, panicking teenager. But the rest of me is so naturally reserved that what actually comes out – what people actually see – is Ferb.

I have often been so excited about a new video game that I wanted to scream like a little girl – I just don’t have the vocal cords for it. I’ve also often felt unfit for society and wanted to make some dramatic change like run away and start a new life in the jungle and live with monkeys and have monkey kids and name them Xavier and Amanda. Plus, as an autistic I have always been intellectually ahead by several years, and socially behind by several years, and I always will be. So the fact that part of me still feels like a teenager isn’t a big shock.

Now I’ve got the Ducky Momo theme song stuck in my head.

Candace and Ducky Momo from Phineas And Ferb

Ben is out. Peace.

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Random Posters and Pins

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‘My Life A.S. Is’ on Kindle

My Life A.S. Is: An Inside Look at Autism and Asperger's Syndrome. Autobiography by Benjamin T. CollierHello everyone! 🙂

Just letting you know that my book My Life A.S. Is: An Inside Look at Autism and Asperger’s Syndrome is now available in the Kindle eBook format, for those of you who have been waiting for an electronic version. I spotted it on Amazon, and you can get to it by clicking here.

I’ll also take the opportunity to thank everyone who’s read it so far for your encouraging words. You guys make it worthwhile. 🙂

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Iron Man 3 – (a film review)

Iron Man 3“You will never see me coming.”

That’s the first thing you should know going into this movie. I don’t think anybody walked into the theatre, or popped in the DVD expecting to get this kind of a movie, and expectations were pretty varied from the beginning. Iron Man 3 has a (so far) unique position in movie history of being a sequel to two movies (Iron Man 2 and The Avengers). Where does a film maker go from there?

I can tell you what I was expecting. I was dreading the typical lame-ass third act where it’s all talk, talk, talk and drama and no action building up to a climactic final battle that ultimately disappoints. Iron Man 2 followed the tradition of Part 2s by having more action than the original while sacrificing story, so I feared Iron Man 3 would become the classically disappointing Part 3. I can tell you instead that Iron Man 3 has more action than the first two combined, while not sacrificing a well-written story that is actually engaging. This movie set a new precedent for what a trilogy of films can look like, and I hope Hollywood takes note.

I did not know this until afterward but Iron Man 3 was made by the same guy responsible for the Lethal Weapon movies – which made a lot of sense. It isn’t just that there’s more action in this movie, there is a particular tone and flavour to it that sets it apart from the kind of Iron Man action we’ve seen before, while still being uniquely Iron Man. This presentation of elements that are fresh yet familiar is probably why IR3 resonates with audiences as well as the first one did. This is what reinventing the wheel looks like.

Iron Patriot. Iron Man 3I am particularly impressed with the mechanics introduced in the new suit. It is the perfect, next logical step from the Mark 7 in The Avengers, and I can see it being referenced or copied in future sci-fi tales. The only drawback is the extreme vulnerability. It seems to come apart more easily than it should for the Invincible Iron Man. As you may have seen from the previews, there is more than one new suit, but only one suit in particular gets extensive camera time – not including Iron Patriot (right) which is described as being War Machine with a paint job.

I know Pepper fans went ballistic over her character stepping up in this movie, in a number of ways. I especially noticed the change in relational dynamics between her and Tony now that they’re an item. She had an authority to her before, but now he actually listens to her. That’s a definite switch.

The Mandarin. Iron Man 3Let’s address disappointments. IR3’s portrayal of the Mandarin is a divisive factor between audiences. I think it works brilliantly if you’re looking to Iron Man 3 as just a good action movie, but if you are familiar with the Iron Man comic books (which it’s fair to say a lot of Iron Man fans would be) then there’s a lot of confusion and disappointment over not seeing a more classical portrayal of the Mandarin. My own conclusion on it this is: it was a brilliant idea, but the wrong movie. This was something to be done with a new character of the writer’s own invention, not a well known and beloved character who is completely different. It meant dropping a huge disappointment on the core audience in order to appeal to a more general audience. That being said, if you can get past all that, it is a very interesting villain that’s worth watching.

Personally, I was disappointed that there wasn’t more of the work of progressing through the different kinds of suits, which was a heavy element in the first Iron Man movie and has been displayed less in every movie since. IR3 features it even less, though I recognize that a theme in this movie is taking Stark back to his roots, forcing him to get outside of his “shell” and handle things from there. I realized quickly that this was a different kind of movie.

There is a section of the movie where a kid shows up. That part gets everybody worried, but it doesn’t last that long, and Tony maintains his personality throughout this middle act, so, try not to panic.

Cautions for Christians and parents

If you’ve seen the previous Iron Man films then you know what to expect. If not then, well, innuendo. There isn’t as much of it this time around, nor is it as strong. The innuendo is reserved mostly for references to his past as a playboy. Which reminds me that I’m also happy with the way the movie acknowledges his past without diminishing his satisfaction with now being in a committed relationship. I thought they balanced that well.

There is also some profanity and mild language. There is violence including people exploding, but it is kept mostly cartoonish.

Then there’s that giant stuffed bunny… with those things that are either paws or boobs, and you can never quite tell which. Maybe it’s one of those things where you see what you want to see.

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Dragon Ball Z – Season 9 – (a TV review)

Buu vs Buu At this point the show stops making any sense whatsoever. I think the writers took this final season as a victory lap, throwing logic to the wind and just enjoying the ride. There is still a lot of fun to be had in the final season. The many character developments of Buu make for a progressively more interesting villain as his various forms are revealed. Each of the Saiyan heroes reach new levels of power. Even Piccolo is given some spotlight as a strategist, if not a combatant.

Overall it is still an enjoyable season, I just kinda tune out after Episode 272 – after that the various explanations of Buu’s powers, how they work and why certain forms are stronger than others completely falls apart with self-contradictions. For one thing, after everything we’ve come to learn about Buu they expect us to believe that he has a complex, human-like system of organs like a digestive tract complete with intestinal worms. I don’t buy it.

Bee the puppy Before I go much further I just wanna let you know that the puppy is okay. See? He’s right here. He’s fine.

Gotenks is a fun character. He fights just like two kids in one body. The Super Ghost Kamikaze Attack is never explained, so when you see it and say “What the crap is that!?” don’t hold your breath.

I have to say Piccolo is back in his prime as a teacher. He brings a wisdom and practicality to the role that no other DBZ characters can offer. I mean, who else in all of Dragon Ball has ever looked at a mushroom cloud where an enemy once stood and said “Don’t celebrate just yet. Let’s wait until the smoke clears.”? Nobody – that’s who.

Gotenks Super Saiyan As a bizarre fighter that can do practically anything, Buu’s attacks get increasingly disgusting. Although the evolution of Buu is interesting, I like his second (or technically third) form the most. All his other forms lack a certain elemental creepiness that reaches its peak in that form.

As a send off for the series, the last few episodes do a good job of touring the homeland, letting you know how all the characters are doing and where they might go from here. A number of characters we haven’t seen in ages make cameos as well. Audiences will likely be annoyed by some of the choices the characters make. These guys are not family-oriented at all.

Violence: apart from the usual, somebody gets shot. There is some strong violence against Buu, but it’s like savagely beating up a wad of bubblegum – not very disturbing. There is also an egg that gets stepped on – it doesn’t sound like much but you’ll know the potential for emotional scarring when you see it.

Nudity: This is the longest nudity list yet. All male though. Goku’s, Goten’s, Trunks’ and Gotenks’ butts, a Super Saiyan butt, and Baby Goku’s butt & junk.

General inappropriateness: Gotenks gives Buu the finger. Buu gives the finger to no one in particular. Roshi rubs Bulma’s can… again. Also that one guy at the end who’s remeniscent of South Park’s Mr. Slave.

Quote of the Season

“Okay, on to Plan B… whatever that is.”

–          Goku

Janemba. Fusion Reborn movie. Dragon Ball z

Fusion Reborn

This is one of my personal favourites of the DBZ movies. The story concept and villain are both interesting, plus it introduces a new hero not seen anywhere else in the Z series, though his appearance is brief.

Basically the story line involves a malfunction with an Otherworld device resulting in some kind of super-demon and a breakdown of the barriers between the universes, resulting in the dead coming back to life. Why bad souls being sent to hell would need to go through a purifier machine first is beyond me, but who cares. Crazy zombie fight time.

A number of long dead villains make a reappearence in this movie. Gohan fights Frieza, Hercule fights random zombies, and Trunks and Goten fight Hitler. The action is fast and inventive. There are some moves in this movie that I haven’t seen anywhere else in DBZ.

Timing this movie was a bit tricky, but I figured the best place is exactly halfway through Episode 254. During the commercial break even. That might seem odd since we haven’t seen that much of Gotenks yet. The locations of the various characters are not perfectly lined up, and the story seems to have been written after the first occurrence of the Super Ghost Kamikaze Attack, but this is the best time to watch this movie without interrupting the flow of the season.

Language: Hell mentioned as a location. An occurrence of the finger.

Nudity: A fat guy’s butt.

Tapion. Wrath of the Dragon movie. Dragon Ball Z

Wrath of the Dragon

This is an odd one, though it’s still fun to watch. And I believe it’s a fan favourite due to it’s significance for Trunks. The story line feels very RPG for a Dragon Ball narrative, with mystery characters who play enchanting music and hold terrible secrets and long lost families and great powers that have been divided up and sealed away. Because of these mystery elements I don’t want to give to much of the plot away. It’s a different flavour for a Dragon Ball movie, but a welcome change.

Shenron only grants one wish. What’s up with that?

The old villain does some kind of alien-ninja-chanting. Apart from that I didn’t notice anything that might concern Christian viewers.

I’d place this movie between Episodes 287 and 288. I think that’s all the characters nicely settled into where they’re supposed to be when the movie starts.

In Conclusion

I don’t have much to say as a wrap up. This is a seriously inspiring show. It has impacted me as a writer/storyteller and as a fiction fan in general. It would take an in-depth look at each season to adequately go over all of the different things the show has meant to me over the years. Speaking of which…

Season 1

Season 2

Season 3

Season 4

Season 5

Season 6

Season 7

Season 8

Of course if I had to pick a particular season that has impacted me the most, or on the most personal level, it would have to be Season 6. I had written a whole blog post about a major plot point from that season before I’d even started this season-by-season review. You wouldn’t expect major spiritual revelations to be found in a show like this, but they’re in there.

Thank you for reading. 🙂

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